Well, the reference to the song from the recent hindi flick ‘Rock On’ is just co-incidental!
In one of his recent blogs, a friend of mine, Ranjeet Elkunchwar, has tried to convey his tribulations with his inner voice. He has always had this great ability to convert his feelings and experiences into words. Being a Scorpio myself I can easily relate to those feelings and the ‘growing up’ curve he talks about.
The events over the last few days have forced me to dig deep mentally too. Handling close relationships and standing by your decisions is like walking a tight rope. You live and die by your decisions – is what I have always maintained, but putting this into actual practice is not easy. As Ranjeet puts it in his blog, I too think this experience will help me truly grow up. I would not like go into the details of the events for obvious reasons. Rather than putting my feelings into words, I would like to share one of my favorite videos, the lyrics of which sort of describe my own trials and tribulations over this period.
It is from Lucky Ali’s album ‘Sifar’ and the song is named “Nahi rakhta dil mein kuch”. The music video is great, but its nothing compared to the amazing lyrics of this song.
The lyrics –
“Nahi rakhta dil mein kuch, rakhta hoon zubaan par,
samjhe na apne bhi kabhi.
Keh nahi sakta main kya sahta hoon chhupa kar,
ek aesi aadat hai meri.
Sabhi to hai jinse milta hoon, sahi jo hai inse kehta hoon,
jo samajhta hoon.
Maine dekha nahi rang dil aaya hai sirf adaa par,
ek aesi chahat hai meri.
Baharon ke ghere se laaya main dil sajaa kar,
ek aesi sohbat hai meri.
Saaye mein chhaye rehta hoon, aankhen bichhaye rehta hoon,
jinse milta hoon.
Kitno ko dekha hai humne yahan, kuch seekha hai humne unse naya..
Pehle phursat thi ab hasrat hai samakar,
ek aesi uljhan hai meri.
Khud chalke rukta hoon jahan jis jagah par,
ek aesi sarhad hai meri.
Kehne se bhi main darta hoon, apno ki dhun mein rehta hoon,
kar kya sakta hoon.
De sakta hoon main thoda pyaar yahan par,
jitni haisiyat hai meri.
Reh jaun sabke dil mein dil ko basakar,
ek aesi niyat hai meri.
Ho jaye to bhi razi hoon, kho jaun to main baaki hoon,
yun samajhta hoon.
Raste na badle na badla jahan, phir kyun badalte kadam hai yahan..”
P.S. – If a picture speaks a thousand words, then a video speaks a million!